Beauty and the Beast

So. I am sitting here and watching one of the best classic Disney movies ever created. Wait for it...Beauty and the Beast. I have to tip my hat off to Mr. Walt Disney, even though he passed away before this wonderful movie was made. He set the foundation for what I believe to be the best set of movies to be drawn.

Granted, the majority...ok ALL of Disney movies involve "once upon a time" and "happily ever after." With all the nay-sayers and "realists" out there, they will actually blame Mr. Disney for getting girls' hopes up that they'll meet their prince charming. Given that it won't be Prince Eric on a large vessel or Prince Phillip riding in on his white horse, but why shouldn't we believe that our Prince is out there?

I have to admit, my favorite Disney Princess movie is Aladdin. However, Beauty and the Beast tells a good story and has the most wonderful moral I think is out there; Beauty is only skin deep AND beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Think about it...if you were Belle and you had just traded your freedom in exchange for your dad's life. Now you have to live with this ANIMAL. What is he even? A lion crossbred with a werewolf that is jumped up on steroids?

Then look at Gaston...here is a MAN's MAN. Tall, dark, dangerously strong and handsome. You can't blame those three barmaids for swooning. I would too considering he apparently has impecible dental hygeine! All the same, as you know he is a straight up douche barrell. Guys like Gaston are only in it for themselves and the only want girls like Belle to be arm candy and a trophy wife. Come on, he had Belle's dad locked up just to make her marry him. Desperate much?

Look at Beast (I have to wonder why they never told us his real name...hmmm.) . True he was a bit of a jerk in the beginning. I personally think he wasn't held enough as a child. D: But once Belle got to know him and Beast melted that heart of ice, we found out he's really just a huge teddy bear that wants to be loved and will do anything to protect his lady.

So ladies, I ask you this. Why don't we give the guys that maybe aren't the best looking a chance?? I remember being friends with the guys in my high school that other girls didn't consider cute and they turned out to be really cool. I'm bummed out that I didn't get a chance to get to know them even better. It's kinda like Princess and the Frog. You gotta kiss some frogs to find your Prince Charming.

I'm talking about deep, meaningful, head-over-heels, his-n-hers towels, let's-grow-old-together L-O-V-E.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and to be loved in return." "A life without love, that is terrible!"-Moulin Rouge

Obviously, my post tonight is about love. For the past few years until recently, I wasn't entirely sure I believed in love, or even deserved love. But ever since I moved back home, I have come to realize love is all around me! I have Heavenly Parents who are constantly watching over me and guiding me day in and day out. My parents love me more than anything else. I have a sister and a brother-in-law who love me and would do anything for me. I have 3 little nephews who are so sweet and innocent that love me despite all my faults because that is how children love- unconditionally. I have love from my friends who will hang out with me if I'm feeling down and we'll do silly stuff and laugh into the night. Romantically, I'm not quite there yet. But it doesn't bother me! It will happen when it's supposed to happen for me. Now that my life is back in order (for the most part), I can envision myself having a happy life with a wonderful man when before all I could see was me getting hurt and left. Since I have learned to love myself, I know that I desereve the best and that is what I will get!

Love conquers all. Even when everything seems lost, love conquers!

Don't Read This if You're Feeling Sick to Your Stomach!

I'm pretty much obsessed with this website called StumbleUpon.com! It's so much fun. Well I "stumbled" on this website http://www.thisiswhyyourefat.com/. I suggest you don't look at it when you're feeling sick to your stomach like I did! Hahahaha.

It's really sad and disgusting what people come up with to eat. No wonder America is the fattest country in the world! D:

This is called Paula Deen's Ladies Brunch Burger. It's a sausage pattie with egg, and bacon between two glazed donuts, and drizzled in what looks like maple syrup. EWWWWWWWW.

And this is one of the nicer looking creations on the website!

Oh the places you'll go!

I've been meaning to write for a while since I don't seem to have caught the blogging bug quite yet. A lot has happened lately and right now I am at a major fork in the road of my life. I want to keep going straight on the path I've been on; however I have not been happy as of late. I moved into an apartment with my best friend the Saturday before Memorial Day and at first it was a lot of fun and liberating. I so enjoyed my new freedom and the independence that living on my own brought me. I was so blinded by this shiney new package that I didn't take time to see what was lying underneath all the shine and glitter.

I've become so unhappy and a slave to my paycheck, always worrying if I'll be able to pay the electric bill, or the Qwest bill or my rent. So much stress was being heaped on me. I wish I had listened to people who told me, "Don't move in with your best friend, cuz you'll end up hating each other." I don't hate her, but living together has torn us apart instead of bringing us closer. I knew something was wrong when I started to want to go home to my parents instead of going home to the apartment after work.

I'm moving back home to live with my parents. I'm rather excited about it. I've missed my family, especially my mom, while I've been living in Mesa. Weekly visits and dailt phone calls just don't cut it. I'm a mama's girl and I have no shame admitting that. This is a healthy choice for both her and me. I value our friendship way too much to continue living the way we have and slowly kill our friendship.

I can now focus on my most reliable alli: ME. I haven't focused on myself in only Heaven knows how long. I want to get my degree and find my future eternal companion. I want to pay off my debts and be able to rent or buy my own place and find some good LDS roommates who lift me up and encourage me to live the standards of the Church. I want to increase my testimony of Institute and tithing, and Temple attendance. I want to live a good and obedient life so I can receive all the blessings I am promised in my patriarchal blessing.

So instead of going straight on the path I'm on, I am going to CTR and choose the right fork that leads to joy and eternal happiness!

New Year, New Start

2010. Holy Crap, another year and another decade has gone by. I am now officially in my twenties and i aspire to make my twenties the best years of my life. I'm not terribly fond of making resolutions at New Year's since they always seem to be broken. However, I do want to make a few for myself that are little and attainable and therefore will be stepping stones towards bigger goals.

So. Of course, there is the cliche resolution- Lose Weight. Idealy, I would like to lose 50lbs. But that number is very overwhelming, so i've decided to take it in chunks. By the end of February i would like to have lost 10-15 pounds. I got a Wii Fit Plus for Christmas and I've enjoyed doing it so far. Right now, my goal is to do it for 5 days out of the week.

Also, I would like to take up a new hobby or refine an old one. I would like to learn how to decorate cakes more professionally or learn how to dance a social type of dance (ie salsa, samba or swing dancing).

Lastly, I would like to be a 3.0 student or better.

As for love, I'm going to take whatever happens. If I happen to get a boyfriend or dare I say it? get engaged...then GREAT! but if I don't then it's just not my time.

Here's to you 2010! May you be filled with happiness and joy!

i can't believe it's gotten this bad. i played my part, yet i apologized. i'm still getting knives in my back and treated like i'm Satan's spawn. now i've come to the decision that i'm done and i'm closing the chapter on this part of my life; i'm starting a new one where i can fulfil my hopes and dreams in peace and where people actually respect me for who i am. i won't turn back and give in to empty words and promises. i realize this new chapter in my life will be hard and difficult, and lonely at times, but i can do it.

no more drama from nasty girls!
no more saying sorry for being RIGHT!
no more taking on other peoples problems!

this time, it's about me.
it may sound selfish, but it's time i focused on myself.

i'm ready.

Life. GAH. at times i love it. but right now...it's driving me crazy and pushing me to the breaking point. this pre-calculus class i'm taking is really testing my nerves, emotions, and spirit. i've never been so frustrated in my entire life! when i go into class, i feel like everyone in there is speaking chinese or something and i'm the only one who speaks english. all this math is a foreign concept to me. and i still have the joy of taking calculus I in the fall... anyways, i have two tests this week, one of them being my final, and i am so ready for this class to be over!!!

i think i'll just finish off by doing this survey my sister did on her blog.

Tag You're it...5 things
5 Things I was doing 5 years ago
1. in my sophmore year of high school
2. being excited about being an aunt for the first time
3. hanging out with Kristi, Meagan and Alisha
4. being a complete Harry Potter nerd
5. working on being first chair flute in orchestra

5 Things on my to do list
1. PASS PRE-CALC!!!
2. save up enough money to buy a new car or apartment
3. decide where i'm going to transfer
4. find a hobby that makes me happy
5. finish decorating my room

What I would do with a Million dollars
1. Pay off my credit card bill
2. Pay for my schooling
3. buy a house and a new car
4. savings
5. buy a new wardrobe

5 Places I have lived
1. Chandler, Az
2. Chandler, Az
3. Chandler, Az
4. Chandler, Az
5. did i mention i've lived in Chandler, Az???

5 Things I want to be doing in 5 years
1. have my B.S. in Psychology
2. engaged or married
3. have a great job
4. starting my own family
5. be back to a size 6 or even 4!