Dear Future Husband...

recent events have really made me think of the kind of husband i need/want and what kind of wife i might be. so i decided to write my thoughts down so that maybe i can make sense of what is going on in my brain.

Dear Future Hubby,
First off, I am a handful. There is a lot of emotional baggage that comes with me. I will do my best not to blame you or get mad at you for what previous jerks have done to me. It is not your fault. But I expect you to be understanding and loving should I slip. I am a physical person. I don't just WANT you to hold and hug and kiss me... I NEED you to; I need you to show me that you love me even when I don't look great and that you appreciate me. In return I will give you the love and affection you want/need. Please make me laugh...That is the way to my heart. When I rub the back of your neck in the car, I want you to talk to me. However, if you should come home and find me frantically cleaning the bathroom and muttering to myself, it's best not to ask me what is wrong until I come to you in tears for a hug. Please don't laugh at me when I am having a difficult time doing something; you will most likely end up on the couch that night. But just a warning, I just might laugh my butt off when you burn dinner on the grill you put together yourself...and then I will apologize profusely for laughing at you when you start chasing me with the spatchula. On a more serious note, when things get rough I more than likely will say I can't take it anymore and want out. But do not fret. Give me 24 hours and I will come running back to you saying how sorry I am and that I didn't really mean it. I like to be early to appointments and such, so please dont make me late. I am incredibly jealous and posessive, but the only reason I am is because I know I have someone wonderful and I don't want to lose you.

I know our marriage is going to be dificult, but after everything we go through... we will laugh at all of our crazy times. I promise. =]

Love,
Your Eternal Companion- Devree

picture time!

i noticed i don't really post any pictures up here, so i thought it would be nice to put up a pretty recent one. i love this picture because i'm with my best friend kaytie and we were having a ladie's night with our friend shea. we all got dolled up and just had a blast!! you can't tell, but i'm wearing my extensions and it's all pulled into a side ponytail. i will try to be better about posting pictures on here!

Decisions, decisions....

i fell off the blogging bandwagon for a little bit, but only because i've been busy with school =]

anyways, i've been thinking a lot about decisions. big decisions, little decisions, medium decisions. decision making is a scary thing for me. a good choice or a bad choice no matter how small or big it may seem can effect the rest of your life. i made a big decision in my life tonight and i'm still a little unnerved by it. i know i made the right choice, but sometimes i wonder why choosing the right has to hurt so much. i've never really felt this alone before...like i can't fully count on anyone. the only thing that is keeping me from turning back at this point is knowing that the one person i can rely on no matter what is my Heavenly Father. He will keep my secrets and comfort me when no one else can or will. i love that feeling and the power that knowledge gives me! and also the knowledge that my savior Jesus Christ took upon himself the sorrows and sins of the world! he KNOWS exactly what i'm feeling right now and he understands better than anyone! how remarkable is that?! i love my savior and i know that he lives!