Just for Fun =]

My cousin Brittney did this, so I thought I would do it too. Way to kill boredom!

Here are the rules:1) Post rules on your blog2)Answer the six '8' items 3) Let each person know by leaving them a comment

8 Favorite TV Shows:
1) The Biggest Loser!
2) Grey's Anatomy
3) Friends
4) Reba
5) America's Next Top Model
6) King of Queens
7) Cold Case
8) CSI

8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1.) Went to school
2) ate a wrap for lunch
3) watched tv
4) wrote the rough draft for my theatre paper
5) took a nap
6) made cookies for my grandpa
7) sprayed weeds
8) watched the biggest loser

8 Things I'm Looking Forward To:
1) turning 20 in october and celebrating it in disneyland with my friends
2) seeing my boys!
3) switching my major
4) getting a job
5) meeting my true love
6) going on a date
7) losing this weight
8) To get married in the temple

8 Favorite Restaurants:
1) Logan's!
2) Olive Garden
3) Applebees
4) Sonic
5) Fleming's Steakhouse
6) SUBWAY
7) Abuelos
8) Cheeburger

8 Things on my wish list:
1) a new car
2) MONEY
3) Wii Fit
4) losing this weight
5) scholarship/grant
6) a new cell phone
7) A trip to Fiji
8) clothes

Friendship

Lately, I have been pondering the meaning of friendship. I think for most people, they only want to be friends with someone when it's convienent. I have two friends who have been close for years, and now they've come to this bump in the road and things are difficult. One of them is extremely frustrated with the other and doesn't understand why she can't make time to hang out and/or talk. However, the other is very busy with school and work and does not have a lot of extra time. It breaks my heart to watch these two girls that I love very much go through this. The good news is that they both are trying.

I went through something similar about a year ago when I was having a hard time accepting Kristi getting married. I felt as if I had been replaced or pushed aside. However, now I look back and I realize that I was just feeling very hurt because my best friend was going on with her life and I couldn't come along for the ride. I think that's what is going on with these two girls.

In high school, it's so much easier to be friends when you see that person everyday and you don't have a demanding job. But when you get into college, you're thrown into the real world. You can't hang out like you did in the good old days. This is life and life is not fun. It's tough. When I step back and look at my life in this aspect, I realize that just because you don't hang out often or talk all the time does not mean you aren't friends anymore. I am still very good friends with Kristi, and I am thankful for that. Another example is my sister Kamee and her best friend from High School, Faith. They were inseperable in High School, yet now they both are married with kids and Faith has moved to Tennesse. Obviously, they don't hang out like they used to, but I do know that they keep in contact and try to talk as often as possible. That friendship is still there. It will always be there.

Friendship or any kind of relationship should not be defined by distance or time. It is the bond you share and what you do with that bond that counts.

"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude." -Timothy Bentley

WOOHOO!

School has just been absolutely wonderful so far! And I say that with no sarcasm. I love each of my classes and I go into each class, just wanting to learn more. I think my Theatre class is my favorite though. We watch plays in class and then discuss them. It's a lot of fun. All of a sudden it's like something clicked within my head that I need to buckle down and focus on school. I'm actually spending more time in the library and looking for more resources for me to use so I can do well on my tests. It's like it's a whole new me! =D

Yay for Motivation?

Today has been...busy? hahaha. I've been doing homework almost all day and I've been feeling really motivated. I'm also really cracking down on myself about this working out thing. (I just hope I continue to stay motivated to do that hahaha!) They say that if you're wanting to lose weight, you should have a piece of clothing as a goal. Well, I've made my Prom dress from my senior year my goal. It's a size 7. I believe I can do it!! I'm going to hang it up in my room so it will stare at me everyday, almost saying, "I WANT YOU TO WEAR ME!" hahaha. =] silly me.

Here's a picture of the dress. It's pretty =]

Anyways, I have spanish flashcards to make. Peace out!

I don't know why I'm even writing right now. I am so tired, I'm having a difficult time seeing the screen and typing. There's been a big storm here tonight and I've loved it. I don't like driving in it though. But I've been sitting here doing homework and the sound of the rain is so peaceful. It has helped calm me down. I think the Gospel is a lot like rain... if you let it wash over you, it cleans away all your worries and cares and you're left feeling clean and refreshed.

well that was my little rant of thought for tonight. night!!!

25 Random Things

My sister did this, so I thought I would too. =]

25 Random Things
1. I am in a lot of pain from snowboarding yesterday
2. I'm still trying to decide what I want to do for a living
3. I want to move out badly, but money is an issue. and so is my fear of being alone.
4. I love my three nephews. They make my world.
5. School is a lot more enjoyable for me now.
6. I wish I was the same size I was my senior year of high school.
7. I'm turning 20 this year, and I can't believe it.
8. I haven't been on a date in about 6 months, and I'm dying to go on one.
9. I'm really craving enchiladas right now.
10. I'm so excited Curtis is home! I get to see my best friend again!
11. I wish I spent more time with my sister.
12. I really need to put up my clothes. and clean my room haha
13. I can't wait to have kids of my own.
14. I need to lay back down.
15. I'm really confused about where my life is going.
16. I'm seriously considering going on a mission.
17. I'm addicted to Hot Cheetos.
18. I can't wait to be done with Chandler-Gilbert.
19. I want to go to BYU-I
20. I love my family even though they drive me up the wall about 80% of the time.
21. I'm going to Texas for spring break and I'm actually excited about it.
22. I'm a momma's girl and always will be. I love spending time with my mom.
23. I love my big truck but I'm ready to have a smaller car
24. I need and want a job, but the economy is making it difficult to find one.
25. It's time for me to go lay back down. My hips and my back are killing me.

i had a rude awakening earlier tonight. two years ago when i was seventeen i got this beautiful fur jacket for my birthday. back then i was a size 8. i have a snow trip this weekend and i tried on my jacket...it didn't fit at all. and this afternoon when i went to the dr's office, i weighed in at 210 pounds. i just broke down crying. i lost sight of what i was becoming. i've been in denial. yet the fact remains (and with no way to sugar coat it) that i am fat.

i need to lose this weight. i'm not healthy, and i'm so ashamed of myself. i'm so angry that i let myself get this heavy.

i don't know where to start. i feel really lost and feel so helpless.

starting weight: 210lbs.
goal weight: 150lbs.
weight loss goal: -60lbs.