i had a rude awakening earlier tonight. two years ago when i was seventeen i got this beautiful fur jacket for my birthday. back then i was a size 8. i have a snow trip this weekend and i tried on my jacket...it didn't fit at all. and this afternoon when i went to the dr's office, i weighed in at 210 pounds. i just broke down crying. i lost sight of what i was becoming. i've been in denial. yet the fact remains (and with no way to sugar coat it) that i am fat.

i need to lose this weight. i'm not healthy, and i'm so ashamed of myself. i'm so angry that i let myself get this heavy.

i don't know where to start. i feel really lost and feel so helpless.

starting weight: 210lbs.
goal weight: 150lbs.
weight loss goal: -60lbs.