Oh the places you'll go!

I've been meaning to write for a while since I don't seem to have caught the blogging bug quite yet. A lot has happened lately and right now I am at a major fork in the road of my life. I want to keep going straight on the path I've been on; however I have not been happy as of late. I moved into an apartment with my best friend the Saturday before Memorial Day and at first it was a lot of fun and liberating. I so enjoyed my new freedom and the independence that living on my own brought me. I was so blinded by this shiney new package that I didn't take time to see what was lying underneath all the shine and glitter.

I've become so unhappy and a slave to my paycheck, always worrying if I'll be able to pay the electric bill, or the Qwest bill or my rent. So much stress was being heaped on me. I wish I had listened to people who told me, "Don't move in with your best friend, cuz you'll end up hating each other." I don't hate her, but living together has torn us apart instead of bringing us closer. I knew something was wrong when I started to want to go home to my parents instead of going home to the apartment after work.

I'm moving back home to live with my parents. I'm rather excited about it. I've missed my family, especially my mom, while I've been living in Mesa. Weekly visits and dailt phone calls just don't cut it. I'm a mama's girl and I have no shame admitting that. This is a healthy choice for both her and me. I value our friendship way too much to continue living the way we have and slowly kill our friendship.

I can now focus on my most reliable alli: ME. I haven't focused on myself in only Heaven knows how long. I want to get my degree and find my future eternal companion. I want to pay off my debts and be able to rent or buy my own place and find some good LDS roommates who lift me up and encourage me to live the standards of the Church. I want to increase my testimony of Institute and tithing, and Temple attendance. I want to live a good and obedient life so I can receive all the blessings I am promised in my patriarchal blessing.

So instead of going straight on the path I'm on, I am going to CTR and choose the right fork that leads to joy and eternal happiness!